tres

people always told me that once they had their 3rd all semblance of normality was gone. i think i'm feeling it. my life feels kind of crazy. like i need to multiply myself so that i can keep up. i spend so much time maintaining my house but never feel like i'm getting anywhere. you know, two steps forward, three steps back. this made me SMILE and say AMEN! i'm so glad she's back (for my sake and hers!!). she's been SO sick with #4! my baby, he's oh so cute and he doesn't like to sleep by himself, which makes getting stuff done seem impossible sometimes. and then there's these kind of things, which really adds to my work load but it's worth the experience for them.

and trying to man-handle all of them in public is a bit overwhelming. i see them behaving in ways i said my children would never behave. like using the aisles of old navy as a soccer field. but i say, what do they expect if they have bins of soccer balls?! or bouncy ball machines?!
of course, going to breakfast with the girls is a priority along with taking the boys to tennis and the library. and going to san luis obispo for the MLK holiday to spend time with my sister and niece and doing some FUN shopping. that's all much more important than staying home to get stuff done. oh, and can i get your opinion on this that some sweet friends came over and helped me with. do you like the arrangement? please offer any input or advice before we make it permanent.
today, is the first day, i feel like progress has been made. this is the first week in a long time, that i don't feel like i'm drowning in laundry. maybe it's doing a little, like one load from start to finish (wash-put away) everyday, instead of multiple loads sitting around waiting to be folded. i finally got both those bathrooms cleaned, the guest bed made, the mud hosed off the patio and the kitchen mopped. i don't have to admit how long those things have been on my to-do list, right? i am so lucky to have such a helpful and understanding husband, who does as much as he can to help me. thank you so much micah for ALL you do for me and the boys!!

i've found myself singing this song to asher lately:
Cleaning and scrubbing can wait for tomorrow,
For babies grow up, I've learned, to my sorrow.
So quiet down, cobwebs. Dust, go to sleep.
I'm rocking my baby, and babies don't keep.
it's a better way to cope than to just go crazy. and accept this life as my new normal. for now at least.